Today was our last lecture. I will be leaving to South Africa in 5 days, and am gathering my items together and preparing for the next two months. I’m quaking and shaking in my boots, can’t wait, it’s pretty surreal. We have officially finished 11 weeks of lecture. We had the privilege to have Amy Sollars as our speaker for the last week. Going to be real here, but this last week with Amy has been one of the most vulnerable and honest moments of DTS. I don’t think it’s possible to sit in one of Amy’s teachings and not be undone and wrecked (in the best way possible). That’s what happens when Holy Spirit moves.
During this week, my heart has been more aligned with God’s than it has ever been. I have just been letting go of my selfishness and making room for God to place His desires. I have been learning about my identity everyday through spending time with Him, and the most important quality I have learned that He continues to tell me is that He loves me. Simple, no-brainer, cliche, and common. Yet, why is it that every time I approach him and ask him questions like, “What are you doing?, “How are you going to make this happen?”, “Who am I?”, “Why is this happening?”, “I need more faith, patience, wisdom, etc.” and so many unending questions I find myself asking, that He always responds with “Olivia, I love you. Do you believe and trust me?” I have been told this pretty much everyday, and have not gotten over the simple fact of his love. I can’t escape it, nor do I have any desires to. That’s when I realized, if you want to have faith, you never ask why or how. It takes faith to not know why or how, because it requires boldness to step out and trust that He is better and bigger than your situation and will take care of it. I gave up all of my rights to understanding why or how, because I have all the answers I need. He loves me. Everything I do should operate of out his love for me and nothing else. If I can’t grasp the reality of this concept, I will continue to ask all the wrong questions and be confused for the rest of my life.
For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.
- 1 Corinthians 14:33, ESV
The real question isn’t what He can do for me, but what I can do for him. The answer would be what He has been doing all my life, to love Him. I stopped focusing on what I don’t have, and started focusing on what I do have. The answer is so simple, yet we spend so much time searching for the ones we can give ourselves. I realized I had such a hard time accepting his love because of the truth and simplicity. I was expecting it to be so much more complex and require a long religious list of accomplishments. No… how much more can it be broken down… he loves me, and it never gets old.
I have received so much freedom by giving up my pride. There was an area of my life that I was holding back from God, and it was my “calling” or what I had thought that he had wanted me to do. I was certain that I had a perfect plan after DTS and knew the next 10 years of my life… I was so caught up with the illusion of my own ambitions I was blinded to Jesus’ plan for me. Of course, He was so kind to point out the areas of my life I never fully surrendered to Him. I realized what I thought was my calling wasn’t apart of His plan for me at all. My calling was going to point to me and my achievements, but God’s calling for me always point to Jesus. His plan for me is to be in love with him, and love others from the overflow of his love. He is greater than my calling. His plan for me is to be his best friend, and because I am so in love with Him I would be willing to do anything and walk out in obedience and faith. What we yield to is what we operate in. I am yielding to God’s love.
Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’
- Matthew 22:37
Lettuce be clear though, the revelation of His love is simple, but it doesn’t come delivered to me everyday. I wake up choosing to love him, choosing to say yes to what He asks of me, choosing to fight for Heaven, choosing to be obedient, and choosing to be resilient to the world. I choose Jesus. I choose Him because I love him. I don’t have to do anything, I get to. It’s my joy and honor to love him. I could continue forever about all the things he has been working in my life, but the one that you can sit and chew on for years is the revelation of his Love for you.
What am I going to be doing when I go on outreach? To sum up everything, I will be loving on Jesus, and the people….: The main and most important ingredient in revival is His love. It’s all about God. It’s all about Love. God is Love. We are starting a God Revolution. We are starting a Love Revolution.
Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.
- 1 John 4:8, ESV
South Africa: December 16th - January 5th
Kenya: January 5th - February 25th
First stop Memel, South Africa! Our connection with the ministry there has been God’s plan for us and is amazing how it all happened. They run an orphanage, a village feeding program and are opening a new school! We have the incredible privilege of being the first team of missionaries to come alongside this ministry in a direct answer to their prayers, and ours!
In Mtwapa, Kenya we will be working with a group of radical, long term missionaries who rescue young girls from sex trafficking and prostitution. The town of Mtwapa is 80% Muslim and known as a brothel town, meaning their main industry and culture is sex related. Due to this fact, prostitution is common, STD’s and HIV are rampant and many girls at young ages are selling themselves to pay their dues.
Our team will be going from school to school teaching a campaign called “Can’t Be Bought” to raise awareness of the dangers of STD’s and to teach the girls about their value in being daughters of the kingdom and their worth in being created in God’s image! We will also be teaching them any skills we have so they can replicate it and sustain themselves through other means than prostitution. Our vision in Kenya is to reconstruct a community rooted in the Father’s heart and love.
Check out these two amazing ministries to learn more!
Thanks for being so patient. We have had such an intensive schedule that I haven’t had time to catch up with myself. Here’s bit of a rundown on what we’ve been up to and what we will be up to!
What we did:
October 28-31: We drove 8 hours from Harrisburg, Pennsylvania up to Salem, Massachusetts to be apart of the Love Project which was a 60 hours of worship nonstop to transform and prepare the city for evangelism. Every October, the city of Salem dedicates a whole month to celebrate Halloween. It is widely known as Haunted Happenings, and people come from all over to experience this culture. On the weekend of Halloween, 100,000+ people are expected to fill the streets. We were able to go out onto the streets and inviting people to receive spiritual healings, spiritual readings, and dream interpretation. Salem is very open to the spiritual realm, so most were open to the idea of hearings, prophesy and interpretations. While they were open to the spiritual world, most were turned off by the name Jesus. We were sensitive to the culture of the city to introduce Jesus with other names He is known as, such as: The Way, The Light, The Truth, The Creator, The Holy Spirit, or God. Many were open and received healing and prophetic words over them that were encouraging and uplifting. We did not go out with any agenda when we were on the streets ministering, we simply hit everyone who came up to us and wanted hearings or prophetic words with the love of Jesus. There is no simpler way to reach people than with Jesus’ love. Salem opened my eyes, deepened my faith and really brought me to such a greater reality in what so many people walk in that I can be so unaware of. It led me to walk in a boldness I never knew I had, it was encouraging to lay hands on people and witness healings first hand. It was a testimony to receive words from God for his children that related to them in ways I couldn’t have known unless He told me. The city of Salem will no longer be known as a city of witchcraft, but as a city of complete peace, as it’s true identity. We love Salem!
For more införmation on the Love Project:
Oct 31 - Nov 3: Right after Halloween night, a group of us left for Lynchburg, Virginia to attend LOVE LU on November 1st. We drove 16 hours with breaks, stuffed in a 12 passenger van. It is now one of the most memorable trips. LOVE LU was a night of worship and a celebration of uniting around the simple message of God’s great love for everyone at Liberty University. Some students at Liberty University had made a decision to hit 11 campuses in 11 days! They were to drive all over the East coast and bring back revival to colleges. We were able to join them in this celebration and encourage them as they were being obedient to what God called them to. For the remainder of the time, we were able to relax and take a break from the exhaustion of traveling and rest in God at the Glory Farm! We were warmly taken in by Papa Joe and Mama Resa who have the greatest Father and Mother heart’s this generation needs! They offered us their home to us with such generous hospitality this world has seen. They have a heart for family and wish for unity among this generation. Each of us were touched and awakened by their wisdom and simple revelations of God. Lynchburg, Virginia is amazing and we were rejuvenated by this time of rest and peace. We were blessed by Papa Joe and Mama Resa and soon hope to be back at the Glory Farm. We want to raise up Father’s and Mother’s!
LOVE LU is apart of the Circuit Riders, and if you wish to find out more about that, you can check out the history, vision and values, and get connected with it! (:
November 3 - 5: Sunday evening we headed for DC from VA and took about 4 hours. We were going to DC to be apart of David’s Tent, right outside the White House, which was a 1000 hour love song to Jesus, full of nonstop worship and prayer with passion to see revival all across America. Every 2 hours there would be people filling up sets to continue this burn. We were given the opportunity to lead sets as well, they are called the night watch sets. Which ranges from late night - early morning, or ours were 4am - 7am, and then 3pm - 7pm the same day. We would worship and contend for America to see a house of prayer in Washington, DC! It was a lot of fun, and we got to blast the city with God’s love for His country!
If you wish to know more about David’s Tent, you can go on their website and read their full statement and watch the last worship set! http://www.davidstentdc.org/
November 5 - 6: Back home to Harrisburg, PA! We had a day to pack and be on the road again to hit three Ivy Leagues , and also had the privilege to hear Keith and Mary Hudson speak on the 6th, who challenged and encouraged us to look at this generation not with our eyes, but our hearts. They are also known as Katy Perry’s parents but do not define themselves as that. They love their daughter and it was refreshing to see that, despite everything, they were all about family, and sticking close to Jesus. They are creative and wish for everyone to have a deep, richer, relationship with the Lord.
November 7- 9: Starting out from Harrisburg, PA → New York City, NY → Hanover, NH → Philadelphia, PA → Harrisburg, PA. We were on our way to Columbia University, Dartmouth College, and University of Pennsylvania. We were able to have a night of worship, and traveled with Dan Baumann as he spoke to the students and shared his story with the topic of love, each with a different aspect he felt led to share. After Dan spoke, he would invite the students to stand if they wanted to receive more of God’s love. We would then go around and pray for students to strengthen and encourage them as they continued in school.
November 11 - 25: We were back to the regular schedule back to classes at Life Center. We read 1 John as a community for 2 weeks straight and also the book of Acts each week. We also fasted 3 days as a community so that God would reveal to us the three graces and four paradigm shifts and that they would take hold in our lives.
Four Paradigm Shifts:
We also had John Leach, Anne Stock, Charles Stock, and Chris Pautrat speak during the two weeks to us about how to be a leader, practical ways to be a leader, stepping out in boldness, being obedient and residing in his love.
November 26th: We had a Thanksgiving Harvest Party at the 333 House on Allison Hill! It is the mansion located in the heart of the ghetto, and we got to go out on the streets and knock on peoples doors to invite them to a free thanksgiving dinner including free family photos and events for the little ones. We were able to bless the neighborhood and shower them with love and build relationships. It was such a blessing to be able to see around 100+ people show up despite the rain and cold temperatures.
What we’re currently doing/will be doing:
Thanksgiving Break! And then 2 ½ more weeks of lecture phase, including the Lancaster Circuit Riders Ablaze Gathering on December 6th! https://www.facebook.com/LancasterCircuitRiders
And for more information about outreach will be posted in a different post!
What our days look like:
8:00 - 9:00: Work duties at church/Optional Devotion
9:00 - 12:00: Class with break
12:00 - 1:00: Lunch
1:00 - 3:00: Workshops/Prayer Room
3:00 - 5:00: Reading Time/Cleaning up our rooms/Ministry Time/Free time
5:00 - 7:00: Dinner
7:00 - 9:00: Various options open for us to attend.
Saturday & Sundays are free besides church.
How you can support me:
As you know I am currently in Fire & Fragrance Harrisburg YWAM student. I currently need $2,200 for outreach and at least $500 monthly to pay bills. I would be so grateful if you would like to prayerfully consider to partner and support me either monthly or a one time donation as I am sent out to the nations! There are two ways you can do so.
1. PayPal: This will come directly to me, and you may specify what the donation goes towards.
2. Check: Pay To the Order of YWAM Harrisburg, and Memo: Olivia So - DTS
Unfortunately, donations are not tax deductible for students, but can be if you choose to go through your local church.
I am thrilled to have you be apart of me for this season, and I ask that you can partner and contend with me through prayer! There is nothing more powerful than prayer. I am so blessed by every prayer, thank you!
If you have any other questions and would like to talk about more, feel free to reach me by any of these!
What is time? haha
I can barely keep up with my own thoughts, and the days seem to fly, yet I feel like days are months and months are years. The least I can do is share a few golden nuggets about what God’s been doing in my life.
These first two weeks have been incredibly nuts. There are 18 students in our DTS, including me, and everyone plays such an important role in being here. We have all been called here for a reason and answered in obedience regardless of how we felt. Also, 1/3 of our students are from Lancaster which is so awesome because most of them went to the Lancaster Circuit Riders, and I hadn’t realized I had met some of them there! Gotta love the Lancastrians. It’s a joy to be with all of the students. I am blessed by each of them and love them so much! One of the lessons we have been learning that resounded with me is:
The first few days of DTS we attended a Supernatural Life Conference at the Life Center with speakers: Georgian & Winnie Banov, Bill Johnson, Heidi Baker, Charles & Anne Stock, and Lance WALLNAU. The conference was amazing, I had the privilege to hear everyone but Bill Johnson. The conference wasn’t about how other people were moving in God, but how God was moving through us. I had to trust, in faith, that people were really responding to God’s presence and not dwell on the fact if they were motivated by their feelings or not. I was learning to receive God’s presence in faith even if I didn’t feel that He was there when I asked him to be. I was humbled to have deeper faith and reminded of my call to serve the nations, sustain the culture of revival, and meditate in his Word.
The following Monday (9/30/13), we started what is known as “Exodus.” We were heading to a cabin 3 hours away from Harrisburg, 30 minutes away from cell service aka a media fast, and allowed to bring a day pack of items for 5 days. We spent the first night worshipping and having some quality family time.
Tuesday morning (10/1/13), we got up by 7AM, had breakfast and headed out for a hike. When we got to the trail, we were told it was a silent hike. We hiked for an hour in silence, and I took this time to talk with Jesus and be the one listening while he shared his heart with me, because that’s what best friends do. It was an amazing way to start the day and kick off Exodus. The rest of the week was full of getting to know each other, worshiping, spending time in His Word, salvation training, family moments, cultivating the heart of revival, understanding God’s character, preaching the gospel, and enjoying God’s creation. We spent a couple of nights sharing our stories and testimonies. We got to understand each other at a whole deeper level. The second to last night we hiked and camped out in the forest, under the stars and our homemade shelters we had worked on all evening. My team was known as “Fernation,” we made everything out of ferns… It was pretty ferny… I regret not taking my camera out to show how fernabulous our camp was… it was a lot of fern… haaa haaa (:
That same night we were told the outreach locations and asked to pray for guidance in which location we should go. The locations are:
We had to choose our top two by the next day at 10. My second decision was really my first aka Amst/Isreal, but when I prayed and asked God where he wanted me to go, I got pictures of the people and the land. This was just for fun, but I also asked God for a shooting star because they are so enthralling and breath taking. The moment I was done with my prayer and opened my eyes, I saw not just one, but two shooting stars! One after the other in opposite directions forming an X. It was all new and exciting to me. I can’t remember if I’ve ever seen them in Alaska. It took me by surprise to see him respond so quickly and be so faithful to me… He knows my heart so well (: It’s always best to answer in faith and obedience when he asks you to do something, or in my case go somewhere… Especially after he was faithful when I asked him for the shooting stars. haha So with that I put down my original second decision of where I wanted to go first.
The rest of the week is a blur to me, but we spent a lot of time getting to know one another, shared our testimonies by the campfire and became a family. Fast forward a few days, and long story short, after a mini scavenger hunt that led to the discovery of our outreach teams, I ended up with KENYA! (: I will be going with a team of 6 students, including me, and 3 leaders. It’s going to be amazing! Cannot wait to see the ways God is going to use us to complete His works.
LANCASTER CIRCUIT RIDERS : AUGUST 4-10, 2013
The vision of Circuit Riders: “Save the lost, revive the saved, train them all.”
When I had gotten back from Circuit Riders, people would ask, “How was Circuit Riders?” And at that time I hadn’t throughly processed it and simply replied “Good, soo good.” With a smile that shared secrets with Jesus. Now I want to do my best to explain why it was so good.
There have been various profound moments that have left a mark in my life, and there have also been fond memories I have kept close to my heart. None of those moments or memories can surpass the experience that transpired during Lancaster Circuit Riders and my time in Pennsylvania. I have never met God at such a deeper and more intimate level before; never understood the calling on my life and why I had a passionate heart for my far fetched dreams; never been so raw, transparent, and humbled by his grace for me; never knew how simple the gospel was; and never fully grasped the idea of repentance until Circuit Riders.
Jesus opened my eyes during Circuit Riders, and that happened by taking steps of simple obedience and allowing him to make room in my heart. I honestly don’t remember what was happening when I decided to sign up for Circuit Riders, all I know was that God really wanted me to go. Through Salvation Training I was able to receive freedom from lies that prevented me from moving forward. I was able to break off strongholds as simple as believing I was undeserving of God’s love, and as complicated of lies I was never aware of with the help of my Circuit Rider family.
A brief list that I am too overwhelmed to go into full detail of my experiences:
I cannot fully express and describe all that went on during CR.
"Now there are also many other things that Jesus did. Were every one of them to be written, I suppose that the world itself could not contain the books that would be written." - John 21:25
YOUTH WITH A MISSION HARRISBURG FIRE & FRAGRANCE DISCIPLESHIP TRAINING SCHOOL : SEPTEMBER 26, 2013 - MARCH 07, 2014
Soon I will be heading to YWAM HARRISBURG F&F DTS. It’s getting so close, the exciting part of the whole shebang isn’t because of YWAM but because God has called me to be obedient and I said yes.
The vision of YWAM: "To know God, and make Him known."
The vision of F&F: “Fire and Fragrance is an Discipleship Training School (DTS) designed to raise up believers into “Presence Centered Missions,” releasing intimate lovers of Jesus into the nations of the earth to complete the Great Commission! We desire to see a whole generation raised up across the earth who would walk in an unapologetic Fire for the Presence of God, worship, and intercession that automatically flows into becoming the very Fragrance of Christ to the lost. The presence of God is the source of all strategy and the power that releases effective outreach.
Revival is now! The Harvest is ripe! You were created to be a missionary. “
God has the best sense of humor, and reveals the best surprises. I’m blown and wrecked by the fruit of simple obedience. I’m looking forward to be in saturated communion with Jesus and walk in the garden with him.
The moment’s finally come to resign from the airport… God has been so faithful to me, it’s difficult for me to accept. It’s been over a year since I’ve worked there, on the last day of my 3 day fast did I get the call for this job. With his provision I was provided for, and with his blessing I am being provided for in a different chapter of my life.
I can’t express how thankful I am for that job, I haven’t been able to sleep due to the nervousness and fear of speaking to my manager. I can’t prolong it any further though, because I leave August 1st for Harrisburg for Circuit Riders. I’m just hoping and praying that everything will go smoothly, that they will understand and accept my sister to replace me.
This is such a big decision I’ve made to be more obedient, it wasn’t easy and I am scared. It’s all so overwhelming, I will have quit all my jobs within the past two days. I’ve been so stressed up until this point, and until i officially resign, I won’t have any peace.
But, step by step, little by little, inch by inch, God has me within his grasp and is taking care of me. He loves me, I know because he has literally been placing “Jesus Loves You” signs on my way to work. One of them was on the corner of the first street with people holding up signs from a church. The second one was a truck with the banner taking up the whole window before I turned off the highway towards the airport. As if he’s reassuring me that he’s got my back, and that I’m doing the right thing. That I’m on the right track should any doubts arise. I’m really humbled by his grace. Thank you Jesus, I’m nothing without you. One more day, and this all leads to whats next in store for me. I need to worry less and be thankful more. I’m so blessed.
Love you daddio.
Lately it’s though I have forgotten all purpose. I don’t know why I’m so caught up. I’ve lost heart, and I need it back to carry on.
Hold my hand and don’t let go. (please)
I had a dream a couple of years ago, like 4-5 years ago.
It was my wedding day, and I was standing with my groom ready to say our vows. I couldn’t see his face, but it was one of the most beautiful dreams, and I still remember it to this day.
All this time I always thought it was a certain person out there for me. Until through listening to a podcast, I realized, it was the last person I would’ve thought of.
He’s the most perfect groom for me, the person that loves me beyond anyone else could ever love. Beyond my future husband. I have the most perfect groom. The best one out there in the whole wide world was right next to me.
It was Jesus. My day became brighter in that instant. Once I realized I was fully, fully, fully wed as the Bride of Christ, the world shifted. Everything shifted, into place. It’s different when you finally experience that deep revelation of Jesus’ communion. I’ve always known this, but to see the story grow and climax to this moment is so beautiful. His love for me is baptized on my heart. I have the wedding band inside of me, the Holy Spirit is our ring that keeps us together when we are apart.
I am so loved. All these years I’ve always felt undeserving of His love, and I still do. I’ve felt unsure of the depth of it. But little by little, over the past years, God’s been revealing to me how much he loves me. Reminding me subtly, and greatly of His love. But to finally realize, I’ve BEEN MARRIED with Jesus. I don’t have to earn anything. I don’t have to become perfect, I don’t have to change to be loved and accepted by Him. I have been for so long. Yet now my eyes have been opened a little wider, a little clearer. He just kept winning my heart over and over and over and over. Everyday.
God is so good.
I am loved, so loved.
The love of God is enough. It’s enough for me. It’s worth it all. He is worth everything. I have fully fallen in love with Jesus. I have fully accepted and given myself wholeheartedly. Finally… haha He has been so patient with me. I’m not perfect though, and I will forget his love, which is why I fall in love every day, over and over again.
The harvest is ready. God is in a season of urgency, acceleration, and harvesting.
The moment I said YES to God, to everything, the moment my obedience was in line with my heart, that was the moment my life just clicked and then I felt the gears kicking up and BOOM. I’m here.
I’ve always looked back on this dream as a fairy tale, thinking, my prince will come someday, I will be standing there with him one of these days.
All this time, that was my wedding, my spiritual wedding, with Jesus! It doesn’t get any better than that.
My true fairy tale starts now. It starts with being obedient to God, to Jesus, to the Holy Spirit. To submitting myself and giving my whole life.
Jesus, I love you so much. Yes. I do.
I am saying Yes to everything He asks of me from this point out. It’s scary to think about what He’s going to ask of me, but I will be faithful, I will be obedient. Because I love him.
12 “And now, Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you, but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul,”
We just gotta dream. Here’s the Dream: Be willing to commit to whatever God says.
Dreams with obedience accomplish the Kingdom.
Dreams without obedience end in journal entries.
Obedience without the dreams of God end in the works of Man.
Dreams of God with the obedience of Man that release the Kingdom.
- Andy Byrd